Ouch, my ulcer hurts :(

Today was a good day, because it's my Dad's birthday! :D Ate at some restaurant at T1, and reached home at around 10+! The food was goooood~ But I'm still full from all the food. AND I bought my gongcha today! ^^ See the reason why my weight is increasing? :/

And throughout dinner I was using my phone which shouldn't be the case actually. But luckily we got it settled and sorted out! Oh, and note to self: CHARGE PHONE BEFORE SLEEPING.

Just finished all the geog pre-presentation stuff -- script, ppt etc! Don't know if we're going to present tomorrow though, since Felicia is not going to school.

Tomorrow's (or rather, later) gonna be a long day! I should sleep soon, in case I fall asleep during lesson time. :X

Haven't done so many things! It's supposed to be 今日事今日毕 but since when do I ever do that? LOL.

Need to wake up early to meet Germs at Bedok MRT tomorrow! Let's hope none of us will be late!

Short and disorganized post, but then again, when were my posts ever organized??

想要搞好大家的人际关系不容易 -- this is what I have learnt today.

I'm having hiccups!

It's only Monday, why do I feel like half the week is gone? Sigh, there must be something wrong with me these few days :(

Had prize presentation today morning. Definitely hoped that Dr. Foo and the other teachers could stare at 4 challenge trophies instead of 2 and go "woahhh!"and that Dr. Foo would have to raise up all 4 trophies until his arm muscles start to ache. But.. :X

Oh well, Bene comp train! Ma'am Shi Ting came down for awhile ^^ Did all 3 components, case, TOC and FD :D Not a bad start I guess, but there are 7 more trainings, definitely a lot more to improve on! Time seems to be passing real fast omg :/

Today's weather is really almost unbearable. Felt like I just showered after flag raising/ lunch, so uncomfortable and sticky :( And I forgot to bring my shirt to change for comp train! -slaps myself-

One thing about today that I'm happy with is the assembly lesson ^^ Went to comp lab and did the e-careers thing. Kind of cool that for the past few years my strongest skill didn't change! But I think the scores did differ a bit though.

Looking at all the list of jobs that website think is suitable for me, I really don't know what I want to do. There's like this blurred image in my head of my future, because I really haven't decided on what to do! Kind of decided to head towards the medicine and healthcare direction, but what exactly? I have no idea.

Two years may not seem to be a long time, but well, there's still time to think about such stuff!

My hiccups went away. Yay!

Missed 11:11 :(

This weekend is NOT productive at all! Didn't complete anything other than 私函 :( And I was only left with 建议 part for that LOL. Not productive AT ALL.

But it's okay, tomorrow's Monday and there's nothing due tomorrow ^^

Prize presentation postponed till tomorrow, but no one told us anything!

Comp train tomorrow after school! If Bene doesn't get high and have fast movement and do everything quickly I'll make them do cases and footdrill with a scalp bandage. I'm serious. (Teehee)

I realise that on weekends I eat non-stop. And speaking about this, BEN AND JERRY'S FREE CONE DAY ON 3RD APRIL :D Never been to one before but I wanna go! Anyone with me??

Chanced upon something while surfing the net just now! Saw the other side of someone, totally didn't believe that it was written by that person! Surprised, but yeah, 人不可貌相!

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And yeah once again, I don't understand them.

I don't understand how they always link one thing that I didn't do correctly with how I'll treat them in the future. I've always been telling myself that when I grow up, I'll be the nicest daughter and make them feel proud that they have a daughter like me. But do they know that every time they say that judging from what I did they can just forget about relying on me next time, I'll feel so pissed off because that is obviously not going to happen and they can't judge me just like that, right?

As much as I'd want to shout back at her, I know I shouldn't because I'll just end up crying and she'll just end up scolding me even more and everything will get worse.

Therefore, I chose to remain silent. Calmed down, and be a happy girl again ^^

Great anger management skills :)

Bene comp train yesterday!

Definitely reminds me of the times when I had comp trains with Dactyl/NC/NA. Haha well, it's a different story now.

Am currently thinking of ways to make Bene high. How! Everyone high please :D

CS @Macritchie Reservoir today. NUS Law school charity run! I realised that they're not only smart, they run pretty fast too! Or rather, from what I see. Before the event started we were talking about using the AED and administering CPR and stuff, who knows what will happen. But thankfully there were no casualties! Now I just need to update the CS forms~

Ended pretty early, consent forms stated 12nn, but we ended at around 9+? Changed and slacked at the entrance while waiting for Lynnett's dad with Ma'am Yixi, DengJing and Lynnett and talked about KPOP/ Uni stuff. Oh and I haven't mentioned about the place where me and Ma'am Yixi were at. At first it was quite peaceful, until monkeys started waking up and making noises, which was quite freaky. And there was this monkey who came towards the shelter and sat at where I was sitting.. There was another one who pee-ed from the tree and I thought it was raining. We also had a cool experience walking down the path in boots/court shoes, definitely.

Lunch with Deng Jing and Lynnett at Mos burger afterwards! :)

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What do parents actually want from their child when they scold them. Or rather, why do they actually scold?

No one likes being scolded. Especially when they scold unreasonably, and they treat you as their 出气筒 because they have had a bad day at work, or something happened which caused them unhappiness. And no matter what, I'm always at fault. Even if I explain myself, there'd always be something that I have done wrong.

But actually I really wonder how it feels like to scold your own child. Does it hurt? And what's exactly going through your mind when you scold? What if after scolding, you still don't achieve what you thought you would, what will you do?

Questions shall be left unanswered! :)

Sorry if the above doesn't make sense. It's only 3p.m but my brain isn't working well. Thinking of taking a nap later..

Today is Saturday. It has been a week.

Wanted to post yesterday but internet got cut off so can't post anymore :(

Anyway, yesterday was a long day! Keep falling asleep in math and I couldn't get myself to understand the chain rule of differentiation. But luckily today's lesson was manageable! Should start to revise already, since common test is in 4 weeks. But then again, I should probably finish up the homework first.

Let's see, what did I do yesterday?

Had SMC meeting till 6+, and got a lift home from RuiXian :D Reached home considerably early yesterday!

Today was a pretty short day, but a good day for me! It was fun in the morning, and up till now I still don't know how we're gonna die (WAITING FOR IT). And lessons were pretty okay, Mrs Shu actually stopped teaching 5 minutes earlier today <: But she didn't let us go! So we slacked~

BSP was okay, the new teacher seems fun! Hope lessons would be interesting, so I can look forward to BSP every week~ Went KLP with Felicia, Yinhang, Cindy and Clarissa! Wanted yoguru but ended up in Subway. Ate so much but it's okay! Had a good laugh at everything and the talk we had there was awesome <3 Girls will always be girls haha!

And apparently after I reach home with a pretty good mood, both attempted to spoil my mood again. But I decided that I WON'T let them spoil my mood today. So I'm a happy girl today! :) The only thing is that I've been having stomachaches the whole day :( And it's still hurting now asdfghjkl.

Prize presentation tomorrow morning, and there's intra comp train tomorrow! :) Wonder how things will turn out.

I'll miss everything.

It's hard to forget.

First day of school. I think I'm slightly quieter than usual today :>

Assembly was cool! Miss (Elizabeth) Teo is really good, if not for her, I wouldn't have realised how cool our school song is.

树立模楷风范

教诲诚信勇忠

Other than assembly, the rest of the day was pretty usual. Nothing interesting happened? Not that I can remember of.

Physics test tomorrow. Jiayou everyone!

It's hard, but I guess it's time to start accepting it already.

It's 2:15pm now. 10 more hours to complete my work if I plan to sleep at 12am today. #missionimpossible

I know I'm supposed to be doing homework. But no, not in the mood to. Have been re-reading all the notes/sms-es sent before and after comp. And as much as I want to believe that we didn't disappoint anyone, my brain tells me that it's impossible.

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NA, this year wasn't easy, but nonetheless, thank you for making this few months a memorable one! Thank you <3

To all my mentors, Ma'am Liwen, Ma'am Charlotte, Ma'am Jiayi and Ma'am Wanxin, thank you for making our CTC journey so fun and memorable :)

It's hard to get rid of this emptiness inside me right now, but I'll try.